Valentine's Day makes most people cranky. The abundance of hearts and teddy bears assaults our peace of mind as we trudge through the shopping centre, desperate to escape the tangle of ribbon and bow. Desperate housewives throng to the novelty stores, eating up gift ideas like emotional valium, boxer shorts that proclaim "Devil In the Sack" or something equally ambitious.
Love is.. my favorite flavor. In fact, loving myself has helped me survive incest, abuse, death, drug abuse, loss and trauma and has made me stronger than ever to give back to the universe.
As I type this , tears are forming in my eyes as I think of how I've had a second chance at life - better than I could ever imagine !!
I prefer to celebrate being in love every day. I don't let it get me down that some people need an offical hallmark accredited moment to share feelings. My loved ones are what matters to me, even more so since being ill. Love is the reason I'm alive, no doubt about it. When I wake up in the morning, the first thoughts that flutter into my mind is love. I'm grateful for the people that stood by me and for the people that have gratefully passed through my life. I feel proud of my future and I understand my past. It's a special life that I have ahead of me now.
It takes practice and patience, but each day just gets better and better from that moment on. I owe so much to my partner, who has selflessly dedicated the last eight months to giving me injections, maintaining my chemo/medication levels are manageable and basically making me laugh when it all seems way too serious.
We have been through hell and back and we are ready to keep on moving forward.
The respect we have for each other is enormous, through the good times and bad.
So whatever way you choose to celebrate this "mc love day" ...remember that everyday is a chance to give some love - not only to others, but to yourself.
It starts inside you, you hold your own hand.
You are the commitment .
To my boyfriend :
Every single day I thank God that he thought I was special enough to be blessed with you in my life. Thank you..forever.
Happy Valentines Day Everyone XX