Had my doctors appointment today and had the six month PCR test and I'm 100% negative.
I was offered to cease treatment but that would lower my chances of clearing virus to 30%.
If I continue for the next six months of Combination Therapy then I will have a 50% chance.
However, in order to stay on the drugs I need to have another "chemo related drug" that requires three injections a week and has a nasty side-effect of chronic bone pain. It means even more blood tests and more appointments and it also means that I will be having the full strength drugs which is great but daunting - I wasn't coping so well as it was. I had my new injection today and I visted the cancer ward and saw some really disturbing things and very sad. I started to feel faint and tears started forming, but I need to be brave. I've got emails from people saying get out of your past and into your future - my future is my story. I am who I am. In time, I will be out living life and getting famous. Right now though, I'm really quite sick. I find blogging is a great way to keep my brain working and also a great way to practise writing. I'm sure you will agree that my actual writing style has progressed quite well and this blog is only four months old.
I know that my life will always be a beautiful love story that I share with you. I love to write and with me - there is no memoir - it's all of me. I've always remained true to myself and thats why I'm not lost. I'm not living in the past - I'm writing it down to share my lessons of love with those that want to buy my book. I don't know the details of my future yet but I'm planning for it to be bright.
A lot of memoirs that I'm going to write will not ever show in this blog either - you will have to buy the book lovelies. Trust me, I know what I'm doing.
Just enjoy the ride.
I hate being sick - it's so passe.