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By the way - I have only had 4 comments on my HUGE memoir below. I know it is alot of words (7000 I think) So, I have divided it into three parts. I won't be posting a memoir until Monday - as that one took about 15 hours.
I will be posting this weekend :)
End Update !
Tonight I had a really dumb idea to go into a yahoo chat room and chat to recovering addicts to spread the word about my recovery. After having a very unpleasant interlude with the administrator - I just have to blog about it and hope one of you are around. Basically, this male advocate of NA was questioning how I got off drugs without the steps that form the basis of Narcotics Anonomous. The feeling in the room was a little bit 'cult' like all they wanted to talk about what how much Narcotics Anonomous was resopnisble for their happiness. I expressed to this self-righteous dude that seeing that addiction is personal and I don't see why recovery - tailored to my needs. I am not anti-Na for the sole reason that one more person off drugs and back in control is the main thing - Whatever works !
But he was quick to tell me that I had it all wrong ! He maintained his viewpoint, reiterating that I would have to go to meetings eventually or I would soon fail at life and be back using drugs in four years. I would love to borrow his crystal ball by the way ;)
I was very disappointed when he warned me to not speak about my "dodgy" recovery in the main room as newcomer's will think they can do it on their own. He sounded like I would have more luck growing a penis from my forehead that I could replace my cheese in a can with.
But seriously, I have had enough of this stupidness. I have contacted several drug forums and because of my links ( of my friends) they refuse to support my site. I think they mean the hooker ones - as they say many drug addicts are sex addicts as well. I have not really found this myself. He let me know quite cruelly that people that did not follow the NA treatment were doomed to fail and that I was kidding myself , I am always an addict. I am ***** fucking ******* (real name) What if I don't want another to just be another fucking label?
I'm a real live person. I told him I would send him a cheerio when I was on Oprah and he was in a smoky hall somewhere counting the days since he was 'born again'.
Through good and bad , I am always me and I will look around for my own steps to take.
I use some of the steps - but not because it's the only thing that works.
No more attempts to get recovered addicts here - it's just too frustrating trying to validate that I am actually different . I believe in myself.
Now I better get on Oprah or I will look like a fucking fool.
Waits for the phone to ring...
Any day now...
GRRRAH ! To the nice people I met - if you dared to come into my lair of rebellion then good on you ! I wish you all the best in your recovery , however you find happiness is ok with me !
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