A Note From The Writer

Welcome to the archived blog posts (when I was a wee blogger, wet behind the ears and not aware of spell check and various other gramatical structures!) I have kept the writings unedited or reworked as I am in the process of doing a massive rewrite of my entire life, many posts I have yet to publish and this blog was merely writing practise for the massive job of sorting out my emotions whilst retelling the story as cuttingly real and dramatic as the real memory was.. some of the posts contained are raw, streaming emotion.. many posts although painful to write, had a tremendously cathartic effect - cheaper than therapy one would say. I welcome new and old readers to keep in touch via my author email (sensualexplorersatHotmaildotcom) if you have any questions or wish to share the feelings and emotions raised by my work.
I will announce the publish date and title whenever it happens and I have been clean now for three years. It is possible.
But it is never easy. It's a lifelong journey, I will always be an addict, but I must stay one step ahead of myself and protect all that can be ruined in the eternal struggle to be
at ease once again, comfortable in this skin.
Thank you for being a part of my story.

Friday, November 12, 2004

%#@$ !!

From : BlogExplosion
Sent : Friday, 12 November 2004 4:30:00 AM
To : Heroinegirl's Lair of Ill repute.

Subject : Banner not accepted at BlogExplosion
HeroineGirl Banner


Reason given:---Exessive profanities in the blog---

Sincerly Crap,
BlogExplosion Team

Hmmm. I found this "elaborately worded' email in my junk this morning and I just sighed again. Another search directory rejection because my material is 'offensive' or for extreme language. This is the first excessive profanity related one. I was a bit embarrased to read it, to be honest. I like to think I am a lady. Normally the needles and sex work attribute to Heroinegirl rejection slips - but there is always a first for everything.

The dumb thing was I was already accepted on blog explosion and enjoying the slight amounts of traffic. It was only when I realised yesterday my banner was lame-o , that I decided to redo a banner , for something to do other than my memoir. Then, as per usual I couldn't be bothered , so I attempted to put my banner back into circulation.
*sounds of sirens and red flasing lights*
Yes it seems this morning, I was pulled over for excessive profanities. So in summary - I am not on blog explosion anymore. ( gay dumb ass thing anyway, yeah I don't need you popularity seeking assholes)

I mean, do I swear that much ? Tell me the truth. Don't count this post. I am deliberately cussing. I don't only swear, I also write beautiful things and put alot of effort into things. Earlier in my blogging career I would email back a retort and emotional reply - now I just flip em the bird and keep on blogging. I will get there, from the gutter to the stars one blog at a time - without thier help if need be. If that's the way it has to be - so be it .
*flips bird*

Seriously, I am more concerned if I am offending you guys, my lovelies - instead of them. I have only said "cunt" like three times and it was well deserved.
I think it was the "F-Bomb" guys...
I recall dropping it a few times in the last memoir ( because that is how agressively I thought, at the time) A memoir - which I might add with a fair pinch of huff -took me six hours and a reasonable amount of blood , sweat and rasberry lemonade. That shit don't just come easy. *bangs hand on table to make point*
Well, blog explosion - you hoighty fuckfaces - Tony Pierce encourages cussing, (as long as your content is edited well as not to lower the overall affect of the writing itself;) And his blog rates. He gets more traffic than you.*
(ok this statistic may be totally made up)
You missed out on having some serious talent, (well, I know what shit blogs are, I see them all the time surfing for points through your shitful program*). Not to mention I was rated five out of ten. I did find some good blogs and if you made it here from Bog Exposure , oops Blog Explosion then welcome.
I won't throw rotten fruit at you and shout cuss words. I am a nice girl. Honest.

I bid you farewell Blog explosion, you judgemental and niave cunt.

*Shockingly Provincial is not included in this - poor thing he sent me to them so now I have to make him hate them as well. Otherwise , I just don't know if we can be friends. Joking, your a traffic slut (like me) so I can say this - I know that you live for page views and referrals - but you can shun them - I will personally visit your site every hour , do away with these fatcat trolls. Begone! I should link to you about here..

Now get your snilvelling little banner off my template.

~ my assistant whispers ~

Oh , I have to do it.
Great ! More fucking shit to do for these fucking shitfaced cunts.
Goodness, that is four times.
( To my younger readers, I don't swear this often.)

This post is a protest to people who never will read this , lol, and don't really give a yahoo about what I think. But I am a female so I need to emotionally purge and rant and rave until something better comes along ( like a new pair of shoes)
Though this post is now getting MUCH longer than what it should have been. I guess I am totally finickerty about how HG *insert unpaid for trademark symbol here, is treated in the "media".
Yes finickerty means pedantically emotional - you can use.
Say it , it is fun.
Faa-ni-kerr- tee !

Oh well as the great strongbad says -BALEETED.

Crapfully yours,

Biggest and Most Awesome Cusser
"Blogging mean stuff and cussing about shit-all - until the end of time."

P.s Slight housekeeping ; Memoir "The thrill of the chase" featured below is now finished and final edit done. You will notice mutliple editing changes and a better sounding story - as I am submitting this piece for an interview. Your feedback is appreciated.


Brandie said...

They can be a bunch of prudish assholes over there. I had to change the original name of my blog to suit them since it had the word "bitch" in it. I cuss all the time on my blog and throw that f-bomb around like no one's business. I don't know what their issue is.

I don't give a crap if they didn't like it- I love your blog and you just keep doing what you're doing. :)

Fat Dude said...

Never change the way you write because Marvin over at blog explosion doesn't like the word ass.

I say whatever the fuck I want to whoever the fuck I want, because I can, because I have a blog. And that's what a blog is for. To me at least. And if they have a problem with that, so be it. I guess my blog won't be exploding any time soon.

darling maggot said...

marvin is a right wing pc closet case dicksucking goatfucking dipshit prissy motherfucker. forget about it.

HeroineGirl said...

That is why I love you guys and wanna show you my boobs.
Yay ! *I do not have boobs.

Rich Rosenthal II said...

I have a mouth like a trucker in my day to day life when dealing with friends and family but I always refrain from it in my writing or when I'm dealing with a stranger because I dont want to give someone an excuse to ignore me. I wouldn't tell anyone what words they should or shouldn't use but these guys are in a business and they want to have as many blogs added as possible so they want and need an environment that is open to the younger mind.

Words like "fuck" are so emotionally loaded that I find it very hard to write something where it can sit well in the piece and flow with it. The complexity of the emotion almost alawys seems to stop the flow of the language and rather than complete an idea for me it makes three seperate ideas. Whatever I say before the f - bomb, the word itself, and then whatever follows.

I rather like the traffic so I'm not about to walk away from it just yet. They thought about doing an adults only bit but the problem they found with that is you get loaded down with porn site affliates and all the real content gets buried.

Biek said...

It's sad to some companies trying to regulate what's on the net. As if they will stop you from getting your story out this way. B*sterds! They should have read your work instead of condamn (deliberately spelled wrong ;-) it, bet they would have had second thoughts then.

puglet said...

dearest Heroine,
I would like to thank BE for pointing you to my blog, at least, where you said nice things about me and all that good stuff ;)
I laughed when you said i must love life, as most think I'm bitter and very sarcastic, but reading your blog I realised you look at life through the eyes of someone who has also weathered a storm. not my storm, but one none the less.
Please do come back, as I'll be coming to yours.

Sabrina_C said...

listen, they are niggers.


Rambling Rene said...

Whoa! I drop the f-bomb like it's the word "the", I even freely use the C-word (unt), but I NEVER use the N-word...I'm always afraid some large black woman is going to come up and pound me into 2010, just in time for my driver's license to be renewed.

In my writing, (and HG can probably attest to this, since she reads my blog) I do not use the F-word in my stories, unless it's in the character dialog. But in my day to day writing, where it's just me talking, like writing in a diary, I use the F-word just as often as I do when I speak out loud. Otherwise, I'm not being true to myself.

JaG said...

Found you through Tony. Fuck BE!!

Trish said...

Personally speaking here, I think you are a lady, and ladies DO swear (I swear, and I'm a lady), so who cares?! People are just too PC nowadays. That just makes me want to bug the shit out of the PC crowd. I can't help it...!!

shadowx said...

You fucking Rock.


deanne said...

Christ HG, if they can't accept you for swearing, when you barely do any - well - all i can say is what a bunch of wanksplats!

Never mind darling, you're still accepted by all of us.

Air kisses dahling!

Bum said...

Spock: Your use of language has altered since our arrival. It is currently laced with, shall we say, more colorful metaphors, "double dumb-ass on you" and so forth.

Kirk: Oh, you mean the profanity?

Spock: Yes.

Kirk: Well that's simply the way they talk here. Nobody pays any attention to you unless you swear every other word.

Damn fuckin'straight. Don't change the way you type, the way you talk, the way you are. Otherwise, it'll be like... blah. There was a time I couldn't complete a sentence without saying fuck.

As is, you get two thumbs up.

River said...

They wouldnt even accept my blog at all :D

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