Wednesday, October 20, 2004
It's A Long Way To The Top
I emailed Belle today as I miss her tremendously , both her person and the luscious contributions to "the movement" and female bloggerism in general. Belle was definately the key factor in this blog's conception. I am definately aspiring to be published ( no coyness will be found here ) I know exactly what I want to do when I grow up - I want to be a writer. I love HeroineGirl and I also know that I will always have plenty of material - such is life. I would rather be paid to blog/write ( I don't really have affinity with the term "Blog" and all it's variants ) than be embarrased about how much time I spend writing my memoirs.Yes, I confess unashamedly that rather than have to maintain a diet, consisting solely of cold cheeseburgers and flat lemonade, I could be on a pink powder puff and writing my memoirs in some very fancy lingerie whilst popping belgian choclate into my smug little trout.
However, I do know the road is long and well travelled and I must admit, other blogs are way more awesome. (I know this because I just read some great ones today) I know I shouldn't compare ..but I always have been a naughty little jerk ~smiles~ then le sighs ;)
Due to my 'airy- fairy -quite - contrary manner ' , I am seriously contemplating leaving my current office job for a little while. I am lucky in that I have excellent managerial support and collegues that are appreciative of my delicate medical situation and after a few heartfelt disclosures on my behalf, I think we are moving towards leaving The Job and finding something more "creative" and "people orientated". Does that preclude photoshopping dramatic gothic pictures and sharing them in blogger with millions - I wonder ?
What will I do at home all the time ? I will write of course and definately study the art. Will I drive you all crazy with this constant talking to myself? I am beggining to feel like Carrie Bradshaw - minus all the cool couture and Manolo's. Of course, it could all go terribly pearshaped, but I would rather be bewildered with trying than not trying at all. Plus , I think that I could find something better for me "The Fairy". Maybe I could start a babysitters club up again - that was so big in the eighties and I did I mention I am great with kids?
I rang Social Security today (only on hold for 25 seconds) and was curtly advised that my entitlement would be the princely sum of "Three Hundred and Sixty-Five Dollars and Six Cents." Fortnightly.
Um.. Hello peoples - do the math - That sucks BIG TIME DONKEY DOODLE !
I spend that amount on expensive cheese and overseas fashion mags alone.
Not only do I want my cable, magazine and dvd habits to be catered for ( internet access is key - I mean how can I look for blogs err I mean jobs) I also have to pay off the "correspondance" course on Counselling that mocks me from my bookcase, I also have debts associated with my time being a junkie. Thousands of dollars there. Then of course, we have the usual food requirement and sundries. I AM GOING TO DIE! I am going to be massively poor as in " I am such a sad piece of crap and only eat tinned food (cold) kind of poor. What if I have to settle for renting a home ( gasp) with ...wheels ? ( faints)
I know exactly how I could earn money, I know exactly how I should earn money.
One way is to go forward and one way is to go backwards. Crossroads.
Kind of like monopoly.
Anyone got a spare get of jail free card ?
Memoir to come.
Posted by Miss Behaving [badly] at 10/20/2004 05:26:00 PM