A Note From The Writer

Welcome to the archived blog posts (when I was a wee blogger, wet behind the ears and not aware of spell check and various other gramatical structures!) I have kept the writings unedited or reworked as I am in the process of doing a massive rewrite of my entire life, many posts I have yet to publish and this blog was merely writing practise for the massive job of sorting out my emotions whilst retelling the story as cuttingly real and dramatic as the real memory was.. some of the posts contained are raw, streaming emotion.. many posts although painful to write, had a tremendously cathartic effect - cheaper than therapy one would say. I welcome new and old readers to keep in touch via my author email (sensualexplorersatHotmaildotcom) if you have any questions or wish to share the feelings and emotions raised by my work.
I will announce the publish date and title whenever it happens and I have been clean now for three years. It is possible.
But it is never easy. It's a lifelong journey, I will always be an addict, but I must stay one step ahead of myself and protect all that can be ruined in the eternal struggle to be
at ease once again, comfortable in this skin.
Thank you for being a part of my story.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Some Kind Of Wonderful

I have just gotten home from everything and god knows I am tired.
I dare not write tonight, the last few evenings I have been barely able to sleep, rattled by images and emotions unearthed on these pages.
I think I should get a good nights sleep tonight, as I a widdle-bit sleepy now.
They say, you have to ride the wave of tiredness when it comes - well -
Surf's Up.

I think I have spyware on my pc. It is like the PC STD. I am ashamed.
I will get you though, you hardy little web weed that calls itself searchmiracle - you will not win.
You should see how much spybot, adaware, norton, zonealarm I have going on.
This bugger is good. I am getting pop -ups !
Very upsetting darling, argh there is another one.
Viagra pushing nazi's!


1 comment:

HeroineGirl said...

I don't think I have mentioned that I absolutely adore SATC ( Sex And The City ) The fashion, NYC itself, the characters. The whole 'realness' of it all.

I am actually very priviledged to have a real life fab four and they have been though so much with me. So although we are all over the globe at the moment, I tune in to SATC and get my dose of girlhood away from home.

They know who they are , so I won't name drop.

Australia is yet to screen the final 6 episodes of SATC , do you believe they just stopped mid series ? Thats aussie tv for you. Neither can I.

Anyways, last night, I watched the Emmys and saw a spoiler ( not for me, I already had spoiled the ending by going onto HBO website, I mean hello !) But they showed actual footage of the final episode and omg - I was sobbing like a baby for at least ten minutes.
I only cheered up because friends is finishing.
Never got into that one.

How am I going to cope when I am watching it for real?
This is a real issue for me.
I love those girls , they helped me laugh in some real shit times, as SJP said last night. She misses it.

Well, same here dollface.
Same here :)

Ain't it great to be a fan sometimes ?


I still havent posted.
I'm going to taekwondo now - in my new uniform.
I look like the hugest nerd but I don't care.