Today was a wonderful day. Unexpectedly delightful. The Best Kind.
It started with a wonderful train journey, I believe I was listening to "She Will Be Loved" by Maroon Five - our current number one in Australia. I love simple moments ,when for a split second , everything is roses and you don't know exactly why or how - but the moment chooses you for that delicious upswing of emotion and plonks you in the midst of something very special.
I call it Life.
I know sometimes we speak of dark times, but don't forget I am never alone - I always have myself and I am always listening to myself, embracing myself and loving myself. I am blessed with a abundant superpower to turn some really horrible memories into the most empowering force -to not just keep "going on". Screw that I'm going to tapdance all the way , not always looking back to those times , but never focussed entirely on moving forward that I forget where I came from.
You have become a part of that now. Part of something really cool that is helping people.
The emails are really heartwarming and I am so flattered by all the great words and genuine compassion. You make me feel hope, and that is a good thing !
Thank you for reading. You make me stronger. Everyday.
You are all my heroes & heroines.
Sometimes I am just so grateful to be here on this train , going to work and being a part of life, the music sweeps me up in some glorious high and I am beaming happiness to anyone that is around me. I feel the love for my boyfriend, the love for my girlfriends, the love of life and just how it all turned around. Dancing in the first rains of summer - Naked. Eating a whole packet of your favorite chocolate biscuits. Giving and getting fantastic head. Your favorite lunch on your favorite day with your favorite friend. I feel like I'm winning. Dancing to a song you always wanted to hear loud and letting it all go. Laughing fits. Looking healthiest you have in years. Feeling a part of things. Surviving. Winning. Playing the heroine for someone else , other than yourself. Sharing a story and touching someone you don't know - but you do.
Life...kinda likes me and it feels so beautiful and right, it is so clean and so promising - I just start dancing on the way to work, the daily commuters beep along and smile - they can't hear my music but I can. ( That is what matters the most)
Yet if they close thier eyes for one precious moment, you can be right there alongside, then they feel the music in my laugh , get the smile in my eyes, get the dance with each confident step I take forward. I love every moment I am alive. Because I am alive. Because... I am me.
And yeah, even when it seems everyone is out to get you ( some people are but that is truly their problem , not yours) so just turn up the music and always put your best foot forward.
I am right beside you.